Love. L.O.V.E.

Everyday. Every day I spend so much time thinking about her. She takes up so much of my time I don’t seem to find enough time to think all the other thoughts I want to think. I find the days to short to walk all the walks I want to walk and the nights to little dream of all the things I want to dream of.

Am I in love? I do not know. Is this a crush? I don’t have the answer but what ever it is it just is. Love is so complex. It can’t be seen nor touched but only felt. I guess love is just love. There isn’t any phrase or explanation for it. Love is Love. You can’t explain it and if you can then I guess its not Love after all.

I use to think that if she was happy then I would be happy. And this is true, I am happy for her.  There is just this feeling of emptiness I have inside. I am happy for her but why do I feel so lonely and so sad? I ask myself so many questions and searching for answers but in time I find myself asking more then answering them.
I don’t know how to explain it but it is a deep moving feeling.

Nothing. I can nothing but dream of her. Still, that still doesn’t matter because if God only allowed me to see her in my dreams then I’d ask him to let me to sleep forever.
There and only there in my dreams I can say all the things I’ve longed to say to her.

Can this be love? Who knows? I’ll just be friends with her now. I won’t walk in front of her and be her leader. I won’t walk behind her and be her follower but instead I’ll walk besides her and be her friend.

Perhaps I’ll find another love. Perhaps I won’t.  Whether I find one or not at this moment I don’t care but for now, I’ll just dream of her in my sleep.I’ll sit, I’ll wait, I’ll wonder, I’ll wish, I’ll sleep and then I’ll dream. I’ll dream of her as if I’ll live forever and when I wake up with her besides me we’ll live life together as if we’d die tomorrow.

I’ll wait patiently until that day..

T_T

~H<3M~